QUEST FOR RECLAMATION

pyaar ki kashti

2011-06-14T23:10:00.002+05:30

ek kashti apne armaanoan wali le chalein..
saasoan se bhari patvaaroan sang le chalein...
behtey hue dariya mein ab tair ke jaana hai...
nayya ko apni humein us paar to pahunchaana hai...
Aur kuch nahin, bas tera saath hi, yaar ab to kaafi hai,
isse badhkar kya koi aur jeevan suhana hai ...

Some random writes 1

2011-06-12T18:58:00.003+05:30

ek ashq, ek alphaaz, ek nagmey ka mol kya karein ..

ulfat mein guzare pal ka tol kya karein ...

zindagi aks ban ke reh jaati hai us ek qadam ka,

Us raah aur manzil ki yaaroan ab parwaah kya karein ...

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A pain of a beloved, echoes in our heart.. from their afflictions, how ever can we part... so known like a reflection in a glass, yet so unkown to us is their pain Alas! .... A chalice of manna dew we all want to share, but even that seems less, when nothing's left to spare.... spiralling we go, falling deep into an abyss that's guile.. yet stands testimony to our courage, that in such adversity we still manage to smile ...

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tere daaman ki chaadhar odhe raateing guzari thi,

teri ghani zulfoan tale tapti garmiyaan kaati thi...

us din basant hi to chayi thi..

magar teri mehak ke bagair to wo fizaoan waali thi...

us khushi ka ehsaas kya kartey

jiski buniyaad tere gham se ajnabi thi ...

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the sterling silences shrouding searing surges of voilent emotions within...
the abysmal abyss of ancestral afflictions engendering remorse within....
the emptiness of life in the soul silencing all sounds within...
the futility of the world killing the drive within ...
the lack of you felt within...
the me not within...

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subah saveray bhare udaan, panchi, shyaam ko ghar hi laut aatey hain ...

nazarey beshumaar-ei-jannat hi sahi... sukoon to ghar ke darr par hi paate hain ..

rishtey ke padhav utar bhi chadhav bhi ...

jo ghistey ghistey ristey ristey mit tey nahi ..

sacche rishtey ban jaatey hain ..

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encore encore they shout, as he weaves the melodies of yore...

Words he tangles, in them his charade dangles..

they see him for his words ample, and not his world which lay in shambles..

pieces broken on the ground, waiting for a thought to string them around...

a thought which could understand , all, when it would hold his hand...

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aankhoan mein basa liya hai
tasveer kya khaak nasha chadhayegi
dil mein usse qaid kar lahoo bana liya hai ..
dhadkan kya khaak use bhula payegi
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with that another day ends ..

another mile life transcends...

it's time to summon the angels now...

for atleast in dreams can life belong in heavens ... gnyt world .

कहो ना कभी

2011-04-08T12:44:00.002+05:30

कहो ना कभी की तुम मेरे साथ साथ आओगे
दिन कई मेरे संग बिताओगे
रातों में ख्वाब में भी तुम आओगे

कहो ना कभी ऐसे भी, की मेरे संग तुम गाओगे
गीत नए धुन नयी हमारे वासते बनोगे
मेरी नज़रों के सामने नाचते ही जाओगे
मुस्कुराहटों से तुम मेरी दुनिया को भर जोगी

कहो ना कभी की मेरे हाथों में हाथ तुम डालोगे
पैरों से पैर हर घडी मिलाओगे
हर सफ़र को ताज़ा तुम बनाओगे
हर डगर को अपने रंगों से रंगते ही जाओगे

कहो ना अब क्यूँ खामोश हो ?

दिलबर मेरे कहाँ मदहोश हो ?

वादा नहीं.. सिर्फ बोल दो

की सदा के लिए .. एक है हम जिस्म दो ...

इंतज़ार ख़तम होने को है

2011-04-07T10:35:00.000+05:30

चाहे जहां तू चले .. चाहे जिधर तू थमे
रहूँ मै तेरे लिए, हर घडी, हर जगेह..

ख्वाबों को तेरे, करदूं हसीन
भर दू तेरे दिल में हसी

ख्वाहिशों को तेरी कर दूं पूरा
न छोडूं तेरी किसी चाह को अधूरा

ऐसे तुझे समेट लूं अपनी ओढ़ में
जैसे नमी छुपी ओस कि बूंद में

थामी है मैंने बाहें तेरी
पाऊँगा प्यार वाली मंजिल तेरी

है कसम मेरी जान-ऐ-हसीन
चलता जाऊंगा चाहे जले ज़मीन

इंतज़ार मेरा कुछ पल कर लेना तू
पूरी होने को हमारी हर आरज़ू ....

खोना नहीं मुझपे यकीन ..
मै दूर सही जुदा नहीं

ऐ वफ़ा, मै दीवाना तेरा
तुझ बिन नहीं कोई आशियाना मेरा

ऐ वफ़ा ये वादा है मेरा
फूलों से भरा होगा आनेवाला कल तेरा

पर ये कल ना मेरा न तेरा,

बस है सपनो का ही सहारा

जीवन गीत

2011-04-06T12:19:00.005+05:30

हलका फुलका बुलबुले सा लम्हा
इधर उधर आसमान में उढ़ता
मचलता नाचता रहता
अपनी ही धुन का राही था  वो


प्यारी सी  सुरीली  सी  नगमा
सुर और ताल का वो टुकड़ा
गीत और बोल गुनगुनाती 
संगीत अपना सजाती थी   वो


देखो आज वो छोटा सा लम्हा
आके नगमे से है मिल रहा
एक नया संसार रचाना चाहता
खुद को यादगार बनाना चाहता है वो


नगमा भी तो लम्हे को चाहती
उसमें भर के उसको मधुर बनाके
सदा बहार वाला राग रचा के
रस वाला जीवन बनाना चाहती है वो ..


उनके अनोखे संगम को देखो
जीवन के मुख्य दो अंश को देखो
हर लम्हे में नगमे को देखो
और ऐसे ही हर पल को जीके तो देखो
अतुल्य जीवन मिलेगा तुमको .....                        

Companions

2011-03-28T11:03:00.000+05:30

Sid~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

In your stride, through the dunes
ride me through, life's lovely tunes
make the way, through the caves
sail me through, life's troubled waves..

hold my breath in your heart
make sure, we never part
give me bliss, show me smiles
fill my life, with sweet reprise

touch me such, stroke me so
love's aura on me bestow
hold me such, embrace me so
in your being, I eternally show

Purvi~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I wish to walk with you too
when holding your hand
wanting to transcend borders
of waters, air and lands

Step to step I shall move along
turning yellow life's blues
U shall be my purpose sole
U shall be my soul's muse

I have desires to make
each moment sensual divine
wanting to feel you sentient
your sensuousness pristine

Sid~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Then what is it, we waiting for
why still denied of us we are
time they say, always flies
let's waste no more, forge our ties

come my love, let's walk away
in symphony, throughout the days
lets spend the nights, in warm embrace
of our souls and his holy grace

come, look, the angels smile
on our souls, their love sublime
come, look, angels, we too are
for love in our hearts is pristine pure

Purvi~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Oh yes, My Love, I do see
the skies turn crimson red
aglow with the shade of our love
hinting what stays left unsaid

In your arms are powers
that hold me soft yet strong
From your breath derive I my air
That lets me smile for long

In you I find my soulmate
in you I find my life
with you I see my destiny
sans any pain, hurt or strife

So do I promise to thee
I shall not fall ever short
of the partner U seek in me
And we shall be, I vow
each-other's eternal support

Yet another of the 'Siddharth Kaul And Purvi' jodi's Jugalbandhi :)

where it all began

2011-03-24T09:58:00.000+05:30

seeking the stars ??
naah closed are the eyes
dreams woven...
silken skies
winds are cold
jittery vibes
a shackle breaks
a big mistake
heart forgets to take a beat
all thats left is brainy meat
dryness within
looking outside for air
it's not strife, no measure of despair..
plain and simple ..
complete not yet
but whats complete
i forget
thirsty yes.. not a drink i seek ...
it's the bane of strength ..
not the curse of meek
not the bliss of solitude ..
the pain of solace
not the words of hope...
the daggers of dark
not the slumber of death..
the life's seista tears me apart ..
i seek not that which lies beyond
the mists of time .. and places of yore
i seek that which lays within
inside an abyssmal lair
where it all begins

kabhi to kahin to

2011-03-23T15:29:00.000+05:30

kabhi to kahin to
paunga mai khud ko tere jasbaatoon mein
rahegi.. mere sang..
tu khil ke ... sang apne armaanoon ke ...
likhenge .. hum kayi..
sunehri si khilkhilaati daastaanein ...
Kabhi to kahin to ..
zameen pe banayenge mahal jo dekhe hain apne khwaboon mein
gayenge .. hum naye ..
geet jo bikherenge rang taranoon mein...
dogi tum.. mujhe kabhi..
har pal mein sang jeeney ke sau afsane...
kabhi to kahin to ...
chayengi rituein bahaaroon waali gulistaanoon mein
jhoomenge ... baharoon sang..
tere mere sapne khule aasmaanoon mein..
tabhi main ..wahin pe..
ho jaunga amar teri ulfat ki un raahoon pe ...
kabhi to kahin to....

The mortar of faith

2011-03-14T17:25:00.000+05:30

The first monument
shattered ruins
Once opulent
and filled with dreams

Wizardry of love
brimming in you
Mason rejuvenated
a bastion new

Monument lost
buried behind
a concealed tomb
in dungeons of mind

Bastion glorious
flags uphold masts
the faith mortar
forever lasts

Winds torrent
strike faith
emotions torment
mortar breaks

cracks emerge
buttress crumbled
egos surge
bastion humbled

Dusts settle new
purged mind
clears view
see's what's left behind

The old monument
and new ruins
beneath all the dust
the old shibboleth pristine

could not inter
now I see
the bastion's splendor
monument's eternity

The monument ruins
today stands tall
though the ground screams
at the bastion's fall

The faith mortar soaked
excess and wet
Under test choked
and desolated love left

The mortar dries
in shop of the time-smith
only then monuments rise
from a bastion's genesis....

The road not taken

2010-09-21T16:16:00.002+05:30

It's a magical little road,
unwinding from the shores
taking many twists and turns
being the path that shall help you return

You have stayed away for long
and want to be back where you belong
into the cushions of the familiars
for the remaining of life's years ...

It's there for you to take,
waiting only for the choice you make...
walking on it shall be an icing on the cake...
only you are wondering if it would be a big mistake...

You are lost and close your eyes
to free yourself from the dilemma's reprise..
but you dont find the answer you seek,
for the fear of the fruits you shall reap..

but it's going to be there one day
you will walk the road someday...
you might as well make up your mind today
for life might not give you another day

meri khudi se meri shuruvaat hai

2010-07-10T12:04:00.001+05:30

Meri khudi se meri shuruvaat hai,
zamaane se jodte mujhe mere jasbaat hain...
lafzoon ko hoonthon pe rokti hui wo ek samajik deewar hai,
Khud mein nahin, shayad isliye, meri samajh ke bahar hai.

Todna usse to usoolon ke daire ke bahar nahi.
kisi ko magar karari chot dena bhi to jayaz nahin.
Inhi usooloon aur jasbaaton ki jung ka anth dhoondhte hum,
iske har anth mein ek nayi shuruvaat hai,
ye andekha karte hum.

Samay to atal hai, wo badalta hai apni chaal pe..
hum naachte reh jaate hai usooloon aur jasbaatoon ki taal pe...
armaanoon ne kamzoor banya hai shayad .. kya karein..
armaanoon ne hi insaan banaya hai.. kaise na rahein ...
part 2
Samay nishpaksh bhi to nahin hai magar,
jeevan se ek hod mein laga rehta hai har pehar.
waqt aur jeevan mein darmiyaan rubaru karata hai
usse jise koi anth, koi shuruvaat, koi rihaee bulata hai.

Thakna hamari chadar ki odh ke bahar hai,
jeeney ke liye humein us daud mein rehna barkaraar hai
Thakne mein koi gunah nahin, wo to sacchai hai,
Thak ke ruk jaana kisi mod par jeevan ki rusvaai hai..

Magar ruk jaana to usool hai zindagi ki,
isi mein kahin basti hai khoobsoorati iski...
Kisi ne kaha tha, kya khoya kya paya jag mein,
paaya hoga bahut kuch agar usoolon ko apne nibhaya ho humnein..

unhein nibhana hai to mumkin, sarfaroshi ki baat hai,
raahein sunehri nahin aur bahut kaali raat hai,
Apni us khudi ki magar kya reh jayegi pehchaan.
Agar wo zamane aur kismat ke reham ki mohtaaj hai .

The day I fell into the pit.

2010-06-25T17:52:00.002+05:30

The day I fell,
into the pit.
The first thought,
when I got to sit.
Wasn't about love or hate,
nor the harshness of fate,
but the chill of having made,
yet again the same mistake,
off letting go that which made,
my life a lovely serenade.

But I shall never learn,
that right, never earn,
because I have to be me,
and if that is all i have to be,
then it is how I shall live,
take all that life will give,
be it pains from memories,
or moments of joys and melodies
For I have to be true to me
the one who shall be
with me through everything
making sure, i keep living
in this world, I still love
Though I know not how.

Sometime I might just go out for that beer,

2010-06-21T13:09:00.000+05:30

Sometime I might just go out for that beer,
Sometime I might just have a little more to cheer.

Sometime I might have to give an inspiration,
Sometime all I might need is a motivation.

Sometime I might get a nostalgic aberration,
Sometime I might have an ominous preoccupation.

Sometime I might be on the road not chosen
Sometime I might be en-route my desired vacation.

Someday I might have those sometimes,
Someday I shan't exist after those sometimes.

Someday I shall break free from my necessities,
Someday I shall have no more apathies.

It comes, It comes and it goes, desires
making life, every moment, as spent in fire.

kabhi ...

2010-05-12T14:28:00.005+05:30

kabhi shabd nahi milte ...

kabhi aarzoo nahi rehti ...

kabhi zindagi nahin milti ...

kabhi maut bewafaa ho jaati ...

kabhi kadam dagmaga jaate hain ...

kabhi do kadam ki doori pe manzil nazar aati ..

kabhi aankh band kar khwaab dekh lete hain ..

kabhi zindagi khuli aankhoon ke saamne sapna ban oojhal ho jaati ...

kabhi mann ek armaan ke peeche hota hai baawala ..

kabhi ek khwahish naasoor ban jaati ...

kehne ko to hai shabd hazaarooon ..

halak se saans honthoon pe hi nahin aati ...

dhadkan ki bhasha ko samajhna hai to mumkin ...

magar humeing wo bhasha samjhani nahin aati ..

Kabhi..

ek lamha guzaarna ho jaata hai mushkil ..

zindagi jab us lamhe ko apni neev banati ...

ek lamha deta hai har gam ...

chaahat jab mukar jaati ..

ek lamhe mein milti hai jannat ..

meherbaan jab ulfat ho jaati ...

ek lamhe ki bandishein hain yeh ...

khwahishoon, aarzoon aur chahatoon ki ranjisheen hai yeh ..

in lamhoon ko samet kar jeevan banate aaye hain hum ..

ek aur lamhe ka bhar dhote aaye hai hum

ek lamha ab jaise guzar na hai paata ..

ek lamha na jaane kyun, rula na paata ..

jaane kaunsa lamha tha jo kahi bichad gaya ..

aane waale lamhoon ke beech mein marasim nazar nahin aata ...

un lamhoon ke bol se geet banati ..

zindagi, ek suriili kavita ban jaati ...

sur kahin koi bichad gaya hai..

jeevan kuch lamhoon ka mohtaaj sa ho gaya hai ...

- Sid.K.Kaul

lafzoon ka kya hai ... dard-e-haal bayaan karte hain ... wo to armaan hai jo dard ko sada jawaan rakhte hain

Whence comes this feeling Wherefore it comes to me...

2010-04-12T18:06:00.008+05:30

Whence comes this feeling

Wherefore it comes to me...

Wherein do i receive aforementioned

When calls it an intruder, the inner me

Within lie fears and doubts

The temptations come from without.

Within has given life strength throughout

Aiding me in fighting evils that rise from without

" Hitherto, why aloof were thee?

Ad hoc how will accommodate you, the inner me

Granting i lay trust despite your guile

Would you go for me, that extra mile.

Sly, you blind reason within me

believe not I, though know I you, as enemy

Proof though you give, against your crime

how do I know thou were not abetted by time. "

It's oversight that kills the sense in me

While it excites the senses in me..

Where from does come this feeling

Why does it come to me

Something I need to say

2010-03-01T11:57:00.001+05:30

It's all for Emotion,

What goes on between you and me..

All the love and affection,

giving a thousand smiles to you and me..

Though there are no debts to pay

for the gifts i have been given...

There is something I need to say,

though my heart's never spoken...

It's not about love proportions,

Nor about you or me..

No not about our dispositions

nor our life's serendipity

I could display memories

of how blissful time has been

I could even play the melodies

of how enchanting love has been

We could even mark anniversaries

and celebrate what has been

We could pray for our love's centenaries

for the times we have not yet seen

We could be lost in this moment

Forget what was and what can be

Make love fill every passing second

with lots and lots of new memories

There is a lot more we can do

a lot more i can speak

find love in everything we do

and in your dreams retreat

But I am here today to say ..

say something true to you

something i might have said every day

and that is that I LOVE YOU AND ONLY YOU

change .....

2009-10-30T16:52:00.002+05:30

Is it ominous?
something transpired
from the heart to my brains..

what happened ?
the mind transcended
the cusp of ideals and irony

am i lost ?
a travel has engendered
as seasons around seem to love change..

am i in cognizance ??
a dream has shattered
a catharsis of emotions is expected again...

so there is a change ???
a loss has been borne, one that of faith
you may, if you wish, give it an appellation of change...

ek nagma hai gun gunane ko

2009-10-08T01:17:00.002+05:30

Ek uljhan hai kehne ko,
sehne ke liye hazaaron mushkileen hain..

Ek zindagi hai jeene ko,
nibhane ke liye hazazroon rishtey hain..

Ek umr ka bhoj hai uthane ko,
bhoj dhaane ke liye hazaaroon lamhe hain..

Ek ulfat ka sahara hai paane ko,
katne ke liye hazaaroon bandishein hain..

Ek sapna hai saakaar banane ko,
todne ke liye hazaaroon aashiyaanein hain..

Ek shayar bekaraar hai mujhmein samane ko,
unsuni karne ke liye hazaaroon ghazalein hain..

Ek shaksiyat ka mukam hai hasil karne ko,
khone ke liye hazaaroon dil ki tamanaayein hain...

Kuch nazmein

2009-07-21T16:21:00.003+05:30

mere yaar ne mujhe ek khhitab baksha hai,

meri ulfat ko rusva kare jo, aisa ek khwab dil me paal rkha hai ..

hum to uski chaahat pe mar-mitne ke liye chal pade the ..

usne meri chaahat ko mehez ek alfaaz bana rakha hai

Hum to jungein lad rahe the,

malum na tha dil ki basti peeche ujad rahi thi...

unko chod aaye the mehfooz imaaratoon ke darmiyaan unki khairiyat ki duvaain lekar,

malum chala wo chal diye kuch lamhoon ke baad humein bewafaaii ki duhayen dekar..

Ek ashq aankhoon se chalak na paya tha, sukh gayi thi mann ki aahein dekh kar...

ki mar mitne chale bhi to sirf duhayeen lekar ...

Aaj mann apne jism ki laash pe baith rudaali sa ho gaya hai ..

dard mein sachayi to hai lekin ...afsana jhootha sa ho gaya hai ...

aisi sazzaa kyun bakshi , bata-e-malik.. kyun dhaya aisa sitam..

ki zinda reh ke bhi zindagi se ho rahe rusva hum ....

thaam lene ki karta hoon tujhse guzarish,

ki zor dhuan ban gaya hai aur patvaarein bhi ho chuki hain kahrij..

Not a self-imposed hiatus

2009-06-17T20:04:00.004+05:30

I had really been busy and also deprived of net on my laptop for a long time now. However I guess hiatus is not always self-imposed. I apologise to one and all for not having replied to the wonderful comments here and also xpress gratitude for dropping by, even though I have not been able to return the same. Now that I have my net back I promise to make up pretty soon.

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I search thou all my life,

I search thou in happiness and strife..

I search thou through memories, dreams and time

I search thou,with grit and determination sublime...

I search thou whilst I know not what thou,

that I seek in my mind...

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Towards a new destiny .

2009-05-29T21:16:00.002+05:30

There rises a desire to live today..

it feels like it's gonna be a new day...

Face wet from fresh dew of the lawn..

Venue of battles I fought from dusk to dawn...

I can now feel the sun rising, its shining..

I feel the connection, my living...

It's a new beginning, a new day..

As I gear up for life ahead, making hay...

Some faces were lost in the night..

their memories follow me through the light...

Maybe it's more than faces,more than memories..

maybe it's a part of my life's song, it's melodies...

So, I sing a new song full of life for me..

A tribute to what they shared with me...

So what if what prevailed was destiny ..

I know my tributes shall last for an eternity..

As i rise towards a new destiny .

Is love ever self-less ???

2009-04-27T10:45:00.004+05:30

Often we come across people claiming to have done something for the sake of their love. Many claim to have undergone a change or having made a sacrifice etc. for the sake of their love ? I wonder about what they are trying to convey here. I mean what is the emotion behind your act ? A character of selflessness for the sake of the one you love ?? Or for that matter Love ? If either of the above mentioned two is your answer then tell me are you obliging them by being self-less ? If you are and you think you are I would be very suspicious of your "Love" feelings. No offence intended here to anyone.

That stems from me belief that one should always do anything they ever do for their own sake and because THEY WANT TO DO IT. Why ? It is only then that you will not regret having done what ever you did. While absence of regret does not ensure no sorrow or pain, it however does ensure that you have in you the grit to bear all pain and sorrow that come as a direct or indirect consequence of your action. Imagine if the action was undertaken for someone else's sake and you had to bear the brunt.. How would you feel ?

I do not believe love is self-less in fact i feel it is very selfish. We are so greedy of being with the person we love that we go to great extents for them, we make many sacrifices and changes for them so that we can be with them. This is the part of the sentence that people I cited before fail to express or maybe even realise. Do everything for the sake of your loved one because you want to be with them forever and know you did not do it for them but for being with them ie. to say for a desire of your own heart. That should remove any feelings you may have off expecting the other person to return every favour you might have made. That should take care of great expectations people have and the give and take canker that creeps into love and poisons it.

I have been very busy and am in kurnool away from home. Haven't been able to read blogs either. Apologies.

Fear of commitment.. ???

2009-03-23T16:47:00.011+05:30

What is this innate need we feel within ourselves to find someone better? From where does it arise? When do we put an end to this feeling? Can we put an end to this feeling? If yes, should it be suppressed or satiated? If satiated, wont we always find someone better than the person we are with? If suppressed, aren't we being dishonest to the person we enter into a commitment with? If both alternatives seem to be taking us down a slippery slope, which one do we choose? Which one is the lesser of two evils? Is there a non-evil if we don't want to make that choice?

I may be stepping into shoes much larger than mine here but I think I can fill them or at least hope to. "Fear of commitment". I have so often come across this phrase being used left right and center by people and often find it to be one of the major factors causing people to end what could have been beautiful relationships. A pseudo-fear, i call it. Many have told me that they are happy with their current partner but feel that the more they see the world the better a person they will find for their partner. This belief engenders a certain sense of insecurity within them. By insecurity I mean the lack of confidence in being able to be committed to that one person for their WHOLE LIFE. While the fact that we will find better people the more we tread out in the world, what is false is the fear that because of this we cannot commit to a person.

Without beating around the bush anymore, i will come straight to the point now. We will always, as a matter of a rule without exceptions, find people better than the one we are with, ALWAYS. The point is we don't realise that sometimes you don't need something better even if it exists right in front of your eyes. You just don't need it. Life can be lived in a fleeting moment or through painstaking eons. Discontentment shall make you live eons and contentment a fleeting moment. This does not imply you marry the first person you meet. What it does mean is that if you truly connect with someone and are compatible with them, you should not bring in this FEAR of COMMITMENT as you feel you can find someone better. The question you should answer really is, "Can I lead a happy and contend life with this person? Can I love him/her all my life for what he/she is?". If you are to further get into the probabilities of that mysterious someone who will be out there somewhere, you shall never stop your quest and hence will be left desolate one day.

Relationships are Hard. No exceptions there. You have to live them and fulfill them. Successful relationships are blissful and give a sense of fulfillment and at the end of the day, all you will have with you is not a memory of the thorns but the flowers you found. Unsuccessful ones only leave behind scars.It is a small world, but life is even shorter. Live it with a sense of fulfillment instead of a desire to only find the best.Remember, "There is always someone stronger, someone richer, someone brainier, someone more beautiful, someone better than someone else in everything". In profession content is greatest adversary of success; In relationships it is the greatest virtue.

Sabse bada Mukam ...

2009-03-16T13:33:00.007+05:30

A poem with a lil usage of urdu in it but i have given meanings of the words in bold hoping tht a reader nt well-versed with urdu would also be able to grasp what is being conveyed..

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Hasil thi unki mohabbat, teri rehmat thi Ei-Mushaahit

{rehmat - blessing,Mushaahit - God }

safar kat raha tha madhoshi mein, aisa tha mera musaahib

{musaahib - companion}

Magar dil mein hazaaroon manziloon ko paane ki thi aarzoo

{aarzoo - wish,aspiration}

har manzil ho ek naya mukaam beshumaar, aisi thi justajoo

{mukaam - pinnacle,beshumaar - extravagant,justajoo - Desire }

Kashmakash ke bhavar mein ulfat ki kashti thi,

{Kashmakash - dilemma,bhavar - whirlpool,ulfat - love}

Nakhuda tha main, meri khwahishein bani patvaarein thi...

{Nakhuda - boatsman, patvaarein - oars}

Garoor, ghamand aur vishwas tha ki akeyle ahle-duniya ko karenge hasil,

bhawar mein dagmagate hue dekha humne sirf unki palkoon mein saahil...

{ahle - whole,palkoon - eyes, saahil - shore}

Aaj main nakhuda hoon magar patvar uski muskaan hai,

uski aaghosh mein guzre zindagi, ye khwahish sabse bada mukaam hai...

A Love's definition

2009-03-09T00:48:00.004+05:30

Is there an apropos definition
of what Love means to thee..
can there ever be a classification
of the love you have for others and me ..

It's just simple pulchritudinous emotions
free from logic, intertwined with destinies..
Relationships christen it with appellations
impose constraints, beget us responsibilities..

There is a lot of chaos and confusion,
time wasted in effort to comprehend it's gravity...
take a closer look at the real situation,
Your love is all about what you have for them or me..

My love is not based on a condition,
but neither is it available for free...
No wonder they call it a divine connection,
between them and us, you and me..

My life's story he paints..

2009-02-28T22:43:00.008+05:30

I hold in my hand a color palette...

lies in front of me a canvas, immaculate.

The colors are still wet, their color still fresh...

Strokes of serenity await, a soaked brush.

Vivid is the picture, desires engender it's intensity...

Ambitions render it depth, bring actions profundity.

The search for purpose fuels, casts lights and shades...

Sense of fulfillment completes the portrait, life's image.

The artist in me, for his happiness yearns....

With a brush and palette about colors of joy, he learns.

My head,heart and hands he uses, they despise pains...

Happy moments fill the canvas, my life's story he paints.

Love's dignity

2009-02-23T10:01:00.003+05:30

The world may say, "Exaggeration!",

when I say,"I 'll love you forever".

It may brand my love,"desperation!",

When I say,"We'll spend every moment together".

The world will always create aberrations,

On the path of my love for you.

It shall always cast demeaning appellations,

At the pristine bond between me and you.

Today I stand amidst all of them,

Demanding the world to come to face with me.

For our Love's honour and dignity are due,

I will have it from them, even if death come to me...

We are meant to be..

2009-02-19T23:44:00.004+05:30

It was a spark, a sudden burst of energy,

showing me a glimpse of my destiny...

It was a sound,an enchanting melody,

ringing in my life,harmony

It was an odour, spreading through the air,

capitivating every breath in me..

It was a touch,an invigorating stimulation,

sending ripples through me...

It was blissful, tons of joys and peace,

Filled my heart's treasury...

It was ephemeral, yet an indelible impression,

left on my memory...

It was a moment, pristine love engendered,

Indeed in unison, we are meant to be....

My last sight

2009-02-17T08:03:00.005+05:30

I saw you cuddled up in the quilt that night,

into the world of dreams you had taken flight.

You seemed to hold the pillow in a tight grip,

countenanced a smile, which lurked on your lips.

Strewn on your face were a few strands of hair,

you seemed to sweat, maybe it was the humid air.

The refulgence of your cheeks; Oh! so bright,

filled the darkness within me with pure light.

I saw your curves, your grace and poise,

as you lay there unaware, spreading joys.

I saw you cuddled up in the quilt that night,

wishing before death do me, that be my last sight

My friend, you shall be ...

2009-02-09T00:13:00.002+05:30

How often do friendships go bad because of an argument or disagreement over a point of view ? Over perceptions ? Why is it so important for us that our friends share the same point of view and perceptions as us ? Why is it that we try to own the person we are close with ? Why is it that we cannot live with the fact that our friends may not like everything in us ? Why is it that we expect our friends to endure all of the above ?

Friends have been vital to my existence and struggle. During the course of my life I made only a few of them, each as hard headed and as opinionated as yours truly. Many a times we fought ruthlessly over an issue and a few minutes after that resumed as if nothing happened. We dislike each other for many things yet hang out with each other. Is it desperation ? NO!!

The force has been our ability to understand that we are different individuals with different attributes, strengths and weaknesses. The bonding has existed because we know each one of us will be there for the other come what may. The contentment stems from the fact that we don't hide our feelings and grievances from each other. The assurance from the 'n' instances where they have not hesitated in highlighting their concerns over what I was doing. That has been the essence of my friendship with my friends and i cannot help but not find a single moment of regret with them. Such people will forever be my friends and this my definition of friendship.

When life is beautiful, why do I need a reason to smile ...??

2009-02-05T17:29:00.004+05:30

How often have we heard people preaching about how we should take pleasure in the small happinesses we find in life to ensure perennial joy in our life ? Often.Well, I guess I am going to do the same here, but in my own small way.

We often talk about perceptions and how the same action can evoke hundreds of different responses to it. We also go one step ahead and claim that one should be allowed to have his own sweet little perception and not try to impose pur perceptions on them. Right? I have faced many up's in my professional career and many downs in my emotional career. I was so divided between them that I perceived myself to be two different human beings in one body, two minds within a soul. I was so throttled by these two worlds that I began to loose grip over my sanity. Finally I decided to take a break, affect a hiatus on my emotional career and sideline it hoping that time would heal it as they say," Time heals everything". He he. The irony is that they also say ,"God helps those who help themselves" ;).

The only result of my action was a suffocation, a desire to breal free from those strangulating shackles; a desire to dive back into that quick sand. The dive would have only meant more misery. Hence I was left with a choice between suffocation and misery and as would be obvious it was a dilemma. I feel this a dilemma many of us face as things dear to our heart cannot be burried nor can they be simply vented out. We need to come to terms with them, take them along in our stride. Right? I guess I managed to do that by ensuring I amalgammate the two careers of my life and then weigh out the positive incidents with the negative ones. The balance was tilted in favour of the positive ones. The point was that I realised that I cannot have evrything in my life. You win some, you loose some. This was the realisation that brought me back my sanity and more importantly an understanding of what had been happening in my life. By understanding I mean acceptance.

I guess this is the message I want to convey here. We cannot have evrything in life. It would do us good to juxtapose the good and the bad nad then see the brighter side of our whole life and not deal with it in parts . Like a song which would sound like a cacophony if some tunes in the middle were left out. So, go out there sing the whole song, not just a part of it and the music would only be sweet.

The Reclamation has begun

2009-02-03T20:11:00.000+05:30

The pen name of descrying the shadows will forever be dear to me as it shall stand as a hallmark of a phase of my life which showed me the abyss of my weaknesses, the strengths of my charachter, a true picture of what I really am and lessons I shall remember for life..

I start the reclamation with a new blog, a new spirit.. wish me luck